الرايات الحمراء- من مذكرات عاهرة

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كم أكره عروقى

ففيها يجرى دمى المحمل بزرات حبك

كم أكره عيناى

فمازالت لا ترى إلا عيونك

صورتك و صور حكاياتنا المشوهه

كم أكرة جسدى

فمازال ملطخ بلمساتك المحرمه

كم أكره ثدياى

و هما واقفان كتمثالين وثنيين

يتوقان لموسم الحج و لمن يتعبدهما

كم أكرة نفسى

لأنها تتوق إليك

تشتهى الحرام

تتوق للعنف

لشهقه الحب و الرغبة

كم أكره بيتى

ذو الرايات الحمراء

مكتوب عليها اسمك

بأحرف من دم و نور

كم أكرهنى كم أكرهنى

طاهره انا… زانيه أنا

مؤمنة انا… كافرة أنا

عاشقة أنا…كارهه انا

عاهرة أنا كنت

يا ويلتى يا ويلتى

لتنزل الرايات الحمراء

و لتهدم خيم الحب و الهوى

و لتقطع عروقى

و لسوف أرى دمائى تسيل

و سأرقص رقص العاهرات

أرسم على جدران الخيم

قصص لم تكتمل

سأرسم بدمائى وجوه و قُبل

لحظات عشق و أمل

و لسوف تبقى القصص

و لسوف تبقى الرسومات

شهود على من قبلى مات

و على زمنى

زمن العشق المحرم

و لتسكت الآهات الى الأبد

و ليفقد الحب

المعنى و الهدف

و ليفقد العشق عهره

و لترحل الغانية

التي طالما أحبت الأحمر فى فراشها

و الأصفر فى شرابها

الى صحراء واسعه

لترقص و ترسم بعهرها

قصص لم يعرفها إلا أمثالها

و لتهب الرياح … و تنثر الرمال

و لتبقى راية حمراء

لا أحد يعرف ماذا أتى بها هنا

الا من آمَنَ بأن

العهر ابتهال و العشق تصوف

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نهي حسن

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I Love You God Because…!


Image and design by Noha

Image and design by Noha

 
 
I love you God because:
You never failed me  
You are worthy of my trust
You don’t need anything from me
Yet you are so much in love with me
Even when I am not in love with you
And after I chose to love “me” too
 
I love you God because:
You gave me  freedom
To be whatever I want to be
With no limitation or judgment
Till I chose to believe in the power of my ‘infinite me”
 
I love you God because:
You believe in me when I don’t
You trust me when I can’t trust myself
You never stop reminding me how beautiful I am
Till I chose to believe it myself
 
I love you God because:
You are “YOU”; so big and I am “ME”; so tiny
Yet you see me clearly, guide me constantly
Whispering into my soul tirelessly
But it is so loud inside, outside and all around me
I fail to listen and differentiate
Yet here you go louder and louder
Till one day I chose to hear you, know you and me
 
I love you God and I am sorry
Because sometimes I forget to STOP:
Worrying, running, asking, thinking,
Analyzing, planning, searching, judging
I Forget To Shut Up…….
 
And REMEMBER to:
Surrender to the beauty and silence within
Ask; then believe in the unseen
Trust; my own power
Love; them and I,
Give; them and I,
Forgive; them and I,
Accept; them and I
Live; with them and I
 
I love you God and I promise you
I will keep my head high up
Because you and I are ONE!
 
Written by Noha Hassan
 
Originally written February 28, 2011 updated November 9, 2011
 
The Way I See It: Whatever you call it, you are ONE with it…
 
Love & Light
Noha

Performance Poetry – يعني خلاص – Arabic Poem

PodOmatic | Podcast – Noha Hassan’s Podcast.

I am happy to podcast my second episode of Performed Poetry.

Please click the link above to listen to  يعني خلاص  (so It’s Over!) Arabic poem performed and written by myself.

I hope you enjoy it as much as I did.

Love and Lights

Noha

A Miracle

St. Joseph's Oratory, Montreal - Photo taken by Noha Hassan

St. Joseph's Oratory, Montreal - Photo taken by Noha Hassan

History: St. Joseph’s Oratory is a great basilica with a giant copper dome built in honor of St. Joseph, patron saint of Canada. The massive edifice, high on the slopes of Mount Royale in Quebec, belies its simple origins as the dream of a humble lay brother named Brother André. Pilgrims still come from all over North America to pray for healing at the shrine of Fr. André, (the Miracle Man)  who was canonized a saint in 2010.

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People who received miracles left their canes as a proof of healing (see pic. above). When I took this photo, I was praying profoundly for a miracle to happen …and to heal.

My Miracle did not happen and I never really had what I was praying for…and I healed.

How many times you were standing in a sacred place praying to God, the Universe or whatever Infinite Consciousness to help you, to listen to your pain, to give you strength, to give you back your lover, money, health, to heal your broken heart, to save your child, to give you one, to save your marriage, your family? …….we all did …even if you are an atheist you couldn’t help it one day to look up the sky and say “help me”.

But then, sometimes, miracle doesn’t happen and prayers are not answered…………… Or so we think!

The way I see it:

If we open our eyes ……..if we shut up and listen …….if we stand still for a moment…….we can hear the answers. We can see and understand the “why”…..sometimes it is not what we prayed for ….(it hurts so much I know …..!) but if we trust ourselves enough, we can believe that if we open ourselves to receive ….we will not receive nothing less than a miracle  ……100% of the time …more miraculous than the initial miracle we prayed for!

Just remind yourself “I am the Miracle – Buddha”.

Love & Lights

Noha

Let’s Get Inspired People…You Have the Power!

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Performance Poetry -Tat Tat – Arabic Poem

PodOmatic | Podcast – Noha Hassan’s Podcast.

I am so excited to share my first Performance Poetry podcast with all of you. I am delighted to start with one of my Arabic poems, Tat Tat Tat.  After so many years using pen and papers for my writing, it’s so different and thrilling to speak the words and listen to it.

Please click the link above to listen to Tat Tat Tat, hope you enjoy it as much as I did.

Love and Lights

Noha

Revolution from a “Personal” Perspective

So, we saw recently Tunisia and Egypt going through their own revolutions (which is OK) and actually WIN (which is phenomenal). But being Egyptian and being a person who looks always for ways to empower herself and everyone around her ..I found myself thinking about Revolution from a “personal” perspective.

What does it mean to revolt? and why? is it being angry? is it being fed up ? is it being treated unfairly? is it being disrespected? is it being belittled? or maybe not having the freedom to speak, disagree, act, show, shine, have equal opportunities? or simply not having the choice? or maybe giving and giving and getting nothing in return? or being taken for granted? or maybe always ending in a place where we do not feel we belong?

When I think about it I find myself saying YES to all – except not having a choice because we do, anytime all the time – but yet there are many nations who live in such circumstances and did not revolt YET. There are many people who live some of these circumstances in their personal lives but did not revolt YET.  So even they do have the choice they did not choose to do “something” about their situation YET. So it must have more to it than going through those “feelings”!

I would say that revolting is the “Courage” to “choose”  to change our present. Yes it is when we say: That due to “this” that makes me feel these undesirable feelings/or putting me in these undesirable situation I DECIDE to take AN ACTION to change it. To choose to DO something about it takes lots of courage, honesty with ourselves and above all a strong believe that we can DO something, we HAVE a choice and we are not hopeless, powerless humans. In another words: strong believe that he, she, you and me …WE have a power ..it is all about a decision to use it and when to use it.

So it is this courage driven by faith in unseen results, strong believe, unstoppable desire to change our lives, situation, position that push us to REVOLT and take the decision to change our present to CREATE what we want for ourselves in the future.

I believe that anyone of us can revolt AGAINST, FROM, or AT, anything that make us feel trapped! because we are not. It can be this is how we see it for now..but it is not true and this when comes the part of “believing” in the unseen, unknown and unsaid. We can change even if the contrary is happening around us! It does not matter if you do  not have an accurate picture in your mind NOW because it will shape with every step you take.

When Egyptians revolted they did not know what will happen! they did not know that every single thing happened turned in their favor and to support the change they want: cutting off internet and phones, arresting journalists, thugs etc.. they simply did not know anything except we need to change and we will. Everything was telling them “you can’t” but they just kept Doing something… and we all know everything was melted in Tahrir square ..

The way I see it: It is that moment when we say “enough is enough I am changing this” that we revolt on any present, person, authority, situation, job, relationship and decide to take action to change IT. It is this moment when we say “I am not scared anymore” to leave, to be alone, to change jobs, to study, to speak up, to say I am sorry, to say I love you, to say I was wrong, to say you were right, to go through this test, to move to another city and the list goes on and on …

I hope all of us get inspired by these people who choose to change, to create a new future, to not only have a dream but to make it reality, to have faith in ourselves and above all to have the courage to say out loud “I am changing this … I deserve better, and I will have it”.

Everyone, if you are not happy where you are now … change it .. because you can .. and you will be amazed how it will turn to be everything you ever wanted or how it will lead you to a different place with a different experience that will add to your growth… leave if you have to … study if you have to..quit if you have to … tell your partner “I am not happy… either to work on changing this with me or I will do it alone” tell yourself over and over and over .. I AM NOT SCARED ANYMORE …if they can do it ..I can ..if they can survive..I can ..if they are heroes ..I am one too. Simply DO something … it could be a small thing …but just take the decision to make a choice…

Love & Light
Noha

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